oftentimes

I'm tired of being silenced. 

I'm tired of never having the guts to say any of my thoughts.

 I'm tired of keeping my head sane when everyone else's heads are not. 

I am tired of faking courteous smiles to people I fucking despise.

 I'm tired of keeping myself from letting out a sigh.
 I'm tired of making too much effort for the wrong people. 

I'm tired of taking care of almost every fucking shit imaginable. 

I'm tired of never being able to get mad at people for making fun of me intentionally. 

I'm tired of never being able to defend myself in front of my dad. 

I'm tired of setting my problems aside to make way for other people's problems. 

I'm tired of not having amazing conversations with my dad.
I'm tired of condemning myself for crying.

I'm tired of not feeling happy at home. 

I'm tired of acting mature. I'm tired of being mature. 

I'm tired of not letting myself be selfish. 

I'm tired of not brushing my pride aside for people I love. 

I'm tired of letting people go away too easily. 

I'm tired of letting things slide too easily. 

I'm tired of keeping toxic people in my life. 

I'm tired of letting people take me for granted. 

I'm tired of giving too many chances.

 I'm tired of pretending to be okay. 

I'm tired of running away.